it sucks to be here. i think i've never felt so depressed in my whole life. i never hated a place so much. this is so bad. thank god for friends.

past weekend was short. i made time for my family, made time for my friends and also for you. i'm sorry if i couldnt spend more time with you. i miss you a lot but how short the time we spent together it's worth every second of it. didnt really buy u something really extravagant for your special day. but i hope the cookies wld mean a lot to you.

first time bukaing with my family at home. everyone was there, my uncle and aunts, cousins. :) what a way to break fast. but it was shortlived. i had to go back to the hellhole before 9. wat to do. suffer. when everyone else is enjoying their sunday night. i truly think it's not fair for us lower ranks here. i hate this place. really. why dont they feel us? i dont think they even realise we are dreading it. i realised this is the only thing i've been talking abt the past couple of posts. someone help me.

i miss my family already. i miss my friends. and i miss you too. i dont think i can get thru all this. what's worth trying to accomplish things you dont get recognition for. u try your best but yet noone acknowledges it. i dont really mind the acknowledging part but for crying out loud, at least realise what i've done here is already my best. i cant give my all to something i dont believe in. i'm not happy here. no matter what anybody's words maybe like. i'm not happy here.