i have been working in and out for the past 2 days without a gd rest. and i'm not even going out to the field for goodness sake. one thing after another. people have been asking me to do things for them and strangely those were part of my jobscope. i dunno but this seems like a lil bit tad too much for me to handle right now. i swear i feel like breaking down today. now i understand the feeling of when someone throws their phone ard when their mad. even though my phone's durable enough to handle a fall or tumble. i dnot think it would be saved if i had thrown my phone just now. i swear i feel like i'm overdoing things ard here. i dont get the people here sometimes. or maybe it's just me doing everythign wrongly. i get fucked for everything i do. i have no grudges with anyone but i feel like i cant work with people. i AM a loner. i have friends but none i would considered very very close. blood close. people all go out and hang out. i prefer to be out with my cousins instead. i hate working here. i just hate the workload. there's this phrase at the cupboard next to my table. skills, knowledge, abilities and experience is only useful when you're at the right place. i dont think i'm at the right place.
anyway, fucked up things aside. i realise now why people go home from work.
1. it's to take that stress every work day away.
2. it makes u smile to see your love one even though the day's been kinda rough.
basically, the main reason is to destress. that's why u go back home at 5pm and start back rolling at 8am the next day but what abt me? what abt US here? I feel like being in my shoes is the worst job u can take. we dont get to go home. we dont get to go out during the week. we see someone for a mere few hours and off we go back to camp and it's not like it's only for a short phase. it's for 2 freaking years for goodness sake. i was so much happier before. they're expecting too much from us. think about their families and i guess they think 2 years of staying in is good lah. i know we're too young too have families yet. no father no mother no brother no sister. i know. that's how we are. fucking slaves. if u have the reason to go home at 5 everyday because of family. why cant i?
Wan (Oversized) felt @ 22:25
anyway, fucked up things aside. i realise now why people go home from work.
1. it's to take that stress every work day away.
2. it makes u smile to see your love one even though the day's been kinda rough.
basically, the main reason is to destress. that's why u go back home at 5pm and start back rolling at 8am the next day but what abt me? what abt US here? I feel like being in my shoes is the worst job u can take. we dont get to go home. we dont get to go out during the week. we see someone for a mere few hours and off we go back to camp and it's not like it's only for a short phase. it's for 2 freaking years for goodness sake. i was so much happier before. they're expecting too much from us. think about their families and i guess they think 2 years of staying in is good lah. i know we're too young too have families yet. no father no mother no brother no sister. i know. that's how we are. fucking slaves. if u have the reason to go home at 5 everyday because of family. why cant i?
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Ns men are the proclaimed government dogs *sighs* :( fauzie didnt win ar. takperrr :) *hugs*
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