please dont promise me,
that you'll never let me go..
promises are meant to be broken dear,
i guess only then will i know.

am i cured yet? or is this scar in my heart not healing at all? i think it's a defense mechanism. our own brain+heart's defense mechanism. like how a spider would bite even though it's harmless if it's provoked? our brain has functioned to learn from mistakes the same way. so if you ever encounter a similar situation again, it subconsciously reminds you abt it. so you know you wouldnt do what you did the last time it happened. true? the thought of going through it again strikes you really hard. then you think. exact same situation. different time, different place. same situation. the last time it happened, you gave someone your trust believing so much that someone will come back after work. guess that was sooooo the wrong move. so this time round, do you think you could trust someone? i dont know. brain says you should give her a chance. heart dont wanna get burnt to ashes again. i believe trust is like the measly part time per hour salary you earn working at some burger joint or some fast food outlet. if you dont work for it, dont expect to get a lot of it.