i think i'm close to perfect to prove my theory right. a stupid theory but hey, if it works for people, isn't it better? the only flaw is falling in love. i dont think i'll be able to do that again. should i be heartless? hmmm.. not a question. i've already decided. i wont be heartless. but i'll be cold. cold enough i dont wish to seek warmth. i can survive here. no worries. i'll get used to it. i've lived in it for a year plus. dont see the reason why it should hurt if i do a couple more. dont worry dear. i'm not hurt. i'll still be there for you. i wont go away. like you said maybe u'll need a couple more years to play. then i'll shall play along too. i wont break hearts, i'll probably go ard mending more hearts, just like urs. i'm putting my heart deep inside the arctic sea. shall this heart be preserved and dug up by scientists in a million years. i've done this before and you found it and brought it home. but it's always easier the second time round. see you sweet heart. for now, please rest.